Yesterday was just one of those days. And so much so that I did not even have the energy to blog about it until this morning. One of my daughters peed on the carpet (the one that has no excuse for such things), I found out Djeryd’s Civil War costume was due this morning, the toilet in the guest bathroom overflowed, I had been single-parenting for three consecutive days, Alyx was still sick, the laundry mountain seemed to multiply exponentially throughout the day, the girls did not get their after-lunch naps, NO ONE would do anything I asked until I threatened with a consequence of some kind, and I thought my head was going to explode with all the frustration I was trying so desperately to keep under control.
Not a horrible day, but not one of my best, either.
At one critical point I walked into my bedroom, closed the door, flopped on my bed and tried to turn all those frustrations into blessings. I decided to be thankful for the pile of laundry screaming at me to be folded because it meant I had a family of so many wonderful people that can play and run and get dirty. I was also grateful because it meant that we had enough clothes that there were extras; more than just the clothes on our backs. That growing pile of clean laundry also meant that my washer and dryer were working – I could be doing lots of other things, like making dinner, and the laundry was still getting done (and multiplying). I was grateful for that pile because it meant I had a good excuse to put on a movie and fold my laundry in the peace and quiet of the night. And I was grateful because I knew I would feel so accomplished when it was all folded and put away.
I went through each difficulty and tried to see the good. I felt so much better when I abruptly walked out of the room five minutes later (because Anna was screaming at me that Erik needed help with his knitting project – good for fine motor skills).
The inner peace and calm did not last for too long. Within a couple of hours I was in my closet bawling my eyes out (from exhaustion, I think). But it’s okay. The bottom line is I didn’t explode, which is a really big deal for me. And today is a fresh day, a new start, with no mistakes (except we got up late and I kind of got grumpy with everybody trying to get out the door, and I over-reacted with Erik playing with his alarm clock instead of brushing his teeth). Oh, well, I mean tomorrow is a fresh day, a new start, yadda, yadda, yadda . . .